Here I am back in Oak Ridge again
But no one's here to greet me cause I lost all my friends
I had a part, but I threw it away
That's when we went our separate ways
I remember what I used to say
I said, "Rain is something that flows away."
Music's the bond connecting us all in the end
So why am I back in Oak Ridge again?

Come a bit closer, I can't hear what you're singing
Yall, in weird cities, I'm hearing your songs playing
Funny, but we still had something solid going
We were the best that we had

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They're calling me by a name I do not recognize
Some don't even know my face
Some have taken after my place
Tales of my actions are widespread and they're fantasized
I forgot I even did that
Maybe I want to forget why I did that

Well, if this is the price that I have to pay
I may be fine with it
Cause there's nothing left more for me to say
I have no ties left

Yeah, that's the world
And I'm just another girl
Haunted by my past again
So then where are all my friends?
Yeah, that's the world
And I'm just another girl
We’re gonna die, but at least I want to see my friends tonight

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Last night I dreamed I was trying to kill you
I tightened ‘round your neck, but I didn’t go through with it
It’s another morning without you around
I tried to write a song, but all I got was this trash

Don’t you know I could break down at any moment
I am terrified that it could also happen to you
Please understand I don’t know what happens next
Please believe
Please believe
Please believe

When I’m speeding in the middle of Tennessee
High on life, at last I can feel myself tonight
A police car stopped me and I had to show my deadname
Under the moonlight, I thought about your pretty face
Your face

Don’t you know I could break down at any moment
I am terrified that it could also happen to you
Please understand I don’t know what happens next
Please believe
Please believe
Please believe

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I woke up late this noon
Saw a picture of you holding my hand
Framing my untorn regret
You are not what I regret

So here I go again
Trying to capture that magic once again this time
Framing me for your self respect
I don’t need their damn respect

Now I don't trust in magic or a miracle
Cause when I listen back, these songs - oh, they're terrible
These little tricks that I pulled, they're so adorable, quizzical
When they remind me who I was, it's so difficult
The way I had so much fun, now it seems mythical
When I write anything now, I feel so pitiful
I wish I could go back to that parable

And I think I have realized my curse
Cause I’ve yet to create my worst
I guess I will pretend as if this is my first
And I’ve lost the place that I belonged
But I won’t have to wander for long

WHEN I COME BACK HOME YOU'LL BE GONE

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Why is it so hard just to rewind
I listen to old songs and somehow I find
I don't hear them the same way anymore
There's bad mixing and flaws and they're just so boring
Do I push myself too hard?
I'm only 19 years old
That's 14 I wasted, letting time be amassed
And 5 I committed to pursuing this worthless craft
I lost all of my friends
Some things are better broken, and ties are tough to mend
This is what I deserve, it seems